Friday, January 15, 2010 7:20 AM

♥i suddenly think that i'm a useless person that makes people upset angry ?? lost all my hope in myself ? never had this kinda feeling before ...dad and mum are aware of it but they seems to look clueless to cheer miie up ? my friends are caring for me but it will bw gone soon ? idk wad to do ? there is just that much of question in my mind right now?? feeling sad ,helpless ,or even hopeless i should say ? when can i decide wad kinda life i wanna live ? just hope that i wont cry ? or even just die off ? to not make people angry or even sad and stuffs ? its just came so sudden that me myself cant accept the fact.... why is it like that ?? why ?? why?? why?? why?? why?? why?? why?? why??why ?? why?? why?? why?? why?? why?? why?? why ?? why?? why?? why?? why?? why?? why?? why ?? why?? why?? why?? why?? why?? why?? why ?? why?? why?? why?? why?? why?? why?? why ?? why?? why?? why?? why?? why?? why?? why ?? why?? why?? why?? why?? why?? why?? why ?? why?? why?? why?? why?? why?? why?? why ?? why?? why?? why?? why?? why?? why?? why ?? why?? why?? why?? why?? why?? why?? why ?? why?? why?? why?? why?? why?? why?? why ?? why?? why?? why?? why?? why?? why?? why ?? why?? why?? why?? why?? why?? why?? why ?? why?? why?? why?? why?? why?? why?? why ?? why?? why?? why?? why?? why?? why?? why ?? why?? why?? why?? why?? why?? why?? why ?? why?? why?? why?? why?? why?? why?? why ?? why?? why?? why?? why?? why?? why?? why ?? why?? why?? why?? why?? why?? why?? why ?? why?? why?? why?? why?? why?? why?? why ?? why?? why?? why?? why?? why?? why?? why ?? why?? why?? why?? why?? why?? why?? why ?? why?? why?? why?? why?? why?? why?? why ?? why?? why?? why?? why?? why?? why?? why ?? why?? why?? why?? why?? why?? why?? why ?? why?? why?? why?? why?? why?? why?? why ?? why?? why?? why?? why?? why?? why?? why ?? why?? why?? why?? why?? why?? why?? why ?? why?? why?? why?? why?? why?? why?? why ?? why?? why?? why?? why?? why?? why?? why ?? why?? why?? why?? why?? why?? why?? why ?? why?? why?? why?? why?? why?? why?? why ?? why?? why?? why?? why?? why?? why?? why ?? why?? why?? why?? why?? why?? why?? why ?? why?? why?? why?? why?? why?? why?? why ?? why?? why?? why?? why?? why?? why?? why ?? why?? why?? why?? why?? why?? why?? why ?? why?? why?? why?? why?? why?? why?? why ?? why?? why?? why?? why?? why?? why?? why ?? why?? why?? why?? why?? why?? why?? why ?? why?? why?? why?? why?? why?? why?? why ?? why?? why?? why?? why?? why?? why?? why ?? why?? why?? why?? why?? why?? why?? why ?? why?? why?? why?? why?? why?? why?? why ?? why?? why?? why?? why?? why?? why?? why ?? why?? why?? why?? why?? why?? why?? why ?? why?? why?? why?? why?? why?? why?? why ?? why?? why?? why?? why?? why?? why?? why ?? why?? why?? why?? why?? why?? why?? why ?? why?? why?? why?? why?? why?? why?? why ?? why?? why?? why?? why?? why?? why?? why ?? why?? why?? why?? why?? why?? why?? why ?? why?? why?? why?? why?? why?? why?? why ?? why?? why?? why?? why?? why?? why?? why ?? why?? why?? why?? why?? why?? why?? why ?? why?? why?? why?? why?? why?? why?? why ?? why?? why?? why??